Okey, I don't know what I'm doing. Am I crazy or out of my mind? Blind Date?
I don't know if should go and meet him. But last nite, he shocked me with some lines/phrases that reminds me of my ex. My angel side telling me i shouldn't playing around. No I'm not playing around. It just maybe... I'm living in denial. My evil side telling me to just go for it. Break people's heart and break my heart as well.
But then, my boss taught me something. You should care people around you. Care for people who wants to be around you. Like how he cared for me. Yeah, I feel pampered.
Really, I don't know what's got into me last night. Suddenly I miss him so much. I wonder if he ever think of me. Why we can't be together? Why I can't erase the memories we had? Why he enters my life and left me in blank? Why on earth he has to be the wrong guy for me?
I have to keep being a strong young woman. Otherwise, everybody will get upset and blame him for making me like this. Oh my, how long can I live like this. How long should I live like this.
Sigh!
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